Things I’m Afraid to Tell You

Have you seen these confessional posts around the web lately?  Jess started it all here and so began the ripple effect onto Ez and she started a group movement that made Meg want to join in by creating Wave No.2.

I have been thinking about how special it is to see a little bit of everyone’s heart.  Just enough to let all of us out here know that on the other side of their pretty blogs and crafty, mindful, perfect days there is a real person with real fears just like you and me.  Sort of a lifting of the curtain if you will.  Their intention in doing this is to make their lives a little more authentic.  I couldn’t agree more and knew I wanted to be part of this movement.

One of the things I am trying to do is live with intention.  Everything I say, buy, make, etc. needs to have a good reason.  A true to my soul, right intention.  This little exercise should help me out.  And it seems when you do things with the right intention good almost always prevails.  This is what Jess said about the Things I Am Afraid To Tell You series now in full swing.

“I didn’t write that post with the intention to do anything other than share my story with you, here on MML. But to see it do so much good in a larger context… that I can’t wrap my head around.”

Without hesitation and with the intention of maintaining my authenticity to you, I am posting today on Things I’m Afraid To Tell You:

1. My short term memory is terrible.  I’m talking, BAD!  It has been that way ever since I hit my head and got a concussion when I was eighteen.  If you don’t know me well, you may think I just don’t care about what you say or have said to me.  It’s not that, it’s just I can’t remember.  It’s very embarrassing but I have figured out tools I can use to help me deal with it and thankfully I have a pretty darn good photographic memory to help me out.

2. I like being alone all the time.  Even though I am very social given the right situation, I much prefer my alone time.  Often I find myself daydreaming about a week long (or more) vacation without my kids or my husband.  And then I feel guilty for wanting this.

3. After leaving my job ten years ago to be a stay at home mom, I still, to this day, feel terrible that I am not contributing to our family funds.  Having worked since I was sixteen it will never feel quite right to be sitting home while Mark works all week.  What I should be doing is not wasting time feeling bad, but enjoying the opportunity I have to spend so much time with my kids. (But…remember #2?)

4.  I always assume people I meet don’t like me.  I need some sort of assurance to know that you don’t think I am dumb.  Crazy right?  I feel I never give a good first (or sometimes second) impression for people to know the real me.  I am trying to be better at relaxing in these situations so I don’t come across blank or even worse, overly chatty.

5.  I hate, OK maybe that is a bit strong, but I really, really don’t like being around materialistic people.  You know the type.  Always throwing brand names around and asking how much something cost.  Or better yet “complaining” about how much their fabulous trip to Europe was even though it cost them a fortune.  All this while dripping in labels and planning their next adventure after making sure you know they need to reschedule their weekly spa appointment.  YUCK!  It gives off such a negative vibe.

Don’t get me wrong.  I myself have nice things, but each is bought with intention.  I also shop at consignment stores and love hand me downs for the kids.  I do not brag about money nor do I talk about what I have.  In fact, I am uncomfortable around conversations regarding money or what people have or don’t have.  There is no judging going on from me if you are rich, poor or somewhere in between.  I like who you are not what you have.

OK, that is enough for this round.  It wasn’t too painful after all and it feels good to give you a little piece of me to get to know better.  I could easily do five more but I’ll save that for another time.

Today, a few more of us bloggers have agreed to hold hands, take a deep breath and exhale together in a group posting.  Thanks Leslie for coordinating this!  If you have a moment, check out what they have to share, leave some comment love, give a virtual hug and maybe you will find enough courage to continue the movement.

PS – The photo above is from Ez at Creature Comforts and is sharing it with all of us bloggers.  She is not requiring anyone to credit or link back to her, but hey, how can I not.  Thanks Ez!!

Amy at Old Sweet Song |Caroline at Salsa Pie | Erica at The Elbow | Jen at Jen Epting | Jen at Taking Off the Mask | Kate at Modern Home Modern Baby | Laura at My So Called Sensory Life |Leslie at Life in Every Limb | Leslie at Lights and Letters | Melanie at Inward Facing Girl | Michelle at Early Mama | Monique at Razing Mayhem | Sarah at SAWK Photography | Tammie at Tam.Me |

Wave No.1 ~ via Ez at Creature Comforts:

Design for Mankind | Little Brown Pen | Beautiful Hello | Curating Style | Sweet Fine Day | The Jealous Curator | Happy Days | Sage & Berries | Really Handmade | Peck Life | Satsuma Press | Rena Tom | For the Easily Distracted | The Hemborg Wife | Vitamini Handmade | Courtney Khail Stationery and Design | Meg in Progress | Dando Photography Blog | Widdershins22 | Alison Citron | Pink Moon Daily | Just Pretty Things | From China Village | Tea with Me | The Darling Ewe | Not Your Average Ordinary | The Electric Typewriter | Elleby Design | Parsimonia {Secondhand With Style} | Life as an Artistpreneur | Hello Cupcake | Dellie | The A & B Stories | Pretty Little Things | Feistyelle | Nib & Zed | Well and Cheaply | I Ripple. I Dance. | Whitfield Awesome Blog | Foxtrot Press | Dry As Toast | The List of Now | Apple Blue | For the Love of | Four Flights of Fancy | Miss Modish | Snapshots & Secrets | Dirty Laundry | Bubby & Bean | Penelope’s Press | Little Nostalgia | Vale Design | Pikaland | Fleurishing | Print Pretty | Vespa Tales | Hazel & Agnes | Amanda’s Musings | Mo’ Funk Designs | Ordinary Mommy | Camp 1899 | In Honor of Design | Liberty’s Yarn | Love, Life & Pictures | Stacey Winters | Owl in the Rain | Living Life Creatively | Emma Elizabeth Clease | I Live in Vacouver Now | British Cream Tea | Maquette | Little Paper Trees | Change is Necessary for Growth | Practically Perfect | Lovely Indeed | Radiant Republic | Teacher Goes Back to School | Acute Designs | This Little Street | The Proper Pinwheel | Kellee Rich | Gluten Free Travelette | Benbrie House | Sierra BB | Lost in Cheeseland | Going Home to Roost | Creative Soul in Motion | Quietly Fabulous | L’elephant Rose | The Anna Delores Blog | Some the Wiser | JRebecca Style | I Saw You Dancing | Wolfie and the Sneak | Threadbare Supply Co. | Lemonwood and Honey | Lolalina | This Texan Wife |

Wave No.2 ~ via Meg at Mimi + Meg:

Coco + Kelley / Court & Hudson / Sacramento Street / My Cup of Te / Crystal Gentilello / MIMI+MEG / The Decorista / Modern Eve / Apartment 34 / Design Blahg / Vmac & Cheese / Miles to Style / Life in a Venti Cup  / The Zhush / Radiant Republic / Savvy Home / The Doctor’s Closet / Design Manifest / Because It’s Awesome / {extra}ordinary wonders / Sparkling Footsteps / Hitha On The Go / Note To Self / So Much To Smile About / Blogstar / The Goods Design / Style & Pepper / Small Shop Studio  / Long Distance Loving / Maggie Rose Blog / The City Girl In Me / The Best Laid Plans / Concrete Jungle DC / Food Fashion Fitness / East Coast Chic

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